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Ok so i found out i was pregnant 1 month before i was about to turn 16. My boyfriend (always the baby’s father) was 18. I actually found out on our 11 month anniversary and told him the same day (some anniversary gift huh) Well the first week of knowing i was totally freaking out on how i should go about telling my parents because i knew they would freak, especially my dad. I was the good girl in school who would always get good grades so it would definitely be a shocker. So i thought i should probably tell my mom first since she got pregnant at 16 and had me at 17. I thought that she might understand me alot better. So about 5-7 days after i found out, i called my mom, told her i was preggo, she came over to my dads house, we went to a clinic to take a more accurate test and it was positive. She told me that she wasn’t mad at me, just a little upset that i was sooo young. She also said that no matter what happened, that she would always be there to back me up in what ever i wanted. Well eventually my mom told my dad that i was pregnant and he told my boyfriends parents (my boyfriends dad is my dad’s friend/boss!) and said that they were gunna be there to support me and the baby..so i thought things couldn’t be more great! I had the support from my parents, my boyfriends parents, and lots of my friends and even their parents but i was missing the support from the person that i needed it from the most…my boyfriend. He wasn’t soo excited as i or my mom was about me being pregnant. He was already freaking out about his car bill, phone bill, graduating high school and worrying about college, he didn’t want another probablem on his hands. I totally understood why he was so freaked, this would be a huge responsibility for the both of us. I would always try to comfort him and remind him that we had the support from our families and friends but he wouldn’t listen..something that also played a role in his non-supportive-ness of having the baby was the fact that he had a bone disease that he thought would get passed to the baby. It’s called osteogenisis imperfecta which basically is saying that you’re gunna have (soft bones). He told me all of the times that he had needed to go to the hospital because he broke a bone playing or skipping around as a child. I did not want my baby to go through the same thing, i was still in high school, jobless, and my parents were already struggling with money problems. so how was i gunna pay for all the medical stuff? Well my mom mentioned that medicaid could help with lots of stuff and it seemed to me like a great idea. But further into the pregnancy and the more i thought about keeping the baby, the more problems started to arise between me and my boyfriend. He would threaten to break up with me if i had the baby, he would say all kinds of mean things to me and made me feel so deserted. He even told me that he was gunna end his life because he was going through sooo much…I personally think he said that to get me to change my mind about having the baby..Ughhhhh there’s sooo much more details… but long story shorter, i told him that i loved him more than anything and i didn’t want to risk our relationship (i actually was lying, i did care about the baby more) and i told him i wouldn’t have the baby. YES i KNOW ITS WRONG. But i was going through sooooooooooo much pain, sadness and depression. throughout the whole pregnancy i was crying my eyes out every single day NO LIE!!! And on top of that, i was still in school trying to not throw up while class was going on or while i walked in the halls. I could hardly eat anything because everything seemed to smeel gross to me at the time.. One morning before school started, me and my boyfriend were arguing again and i finally gave in! I told him i would have an abortion, but that i would brake up with him afterward…So i missed school and went to the doctor place..after afew mins of waiting, they called me in a room where i had my very FIRST sonogram.My baby looked like a blob, but a very cute blob…and i dont wanna explain what happened after! I REGRET iT SOOOO MUCH! I PRAY TO GOD ASKiNG FOR FORGiVNESS! I know if i could, i would go back in time and change what i did. I know in the long run, i can accomplish more in life and it’d be better for my future but it will NEVER EVER TAKE THE PAIN i HAVE AWAY! At night’s i pray and ask GOD to take care of my baby and i tell my baby that i love him and that im sorry. I even told GOD that i would have twins next time i get pregnant and that i would go through as much pain possible to make up for what i did. Its been almost 3 months since the abortion and i find myself getting better, im not as depressed as i used to be, but im still not happy and i find myself wanting to get pregnant again but keeping it FOR SURE!!! Im still with my boyfriend despite all the problems we went through, we worked them ALL out. We’ve been together for 12 months, about to be 13 and up to

I have just turned 23 and recently havent been well since new years. I had my periods and cramps all throughout the few months but my boyfriend asked me if i was pregnant. After a couple of weeks of “nagging” i took a test just to prove him wrong. WELL he wasnt. So i went to my GP and explained that i couldnt keep the pregnancy (i have manic-depression with anxiety and im still struggling to control it).

I had a handheld sonagram but there wasnt a heartbeat so he said i might be early on although my stomach feels quite late. So i was referred to the hospital who did a full ultrasound and said i looked 19weeks (I DID NOT KNOW I WAS THAT FAR GONE) but they needed me to go to radiology. Now im waiting for my radiology appointment and then making arrangements.

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Of coarse her performance was rusty! It has been 2 years at least since she has been on stage. She has suffered post partom depression severly. She needs left alone. I think she was very very brave in getting onstage for the awards. Fat!!!??? No way! She looks good. It’s difficult to get your pre-pregnancy body back! She needs support instead of getting picked on. Put yourselves in her shoes and see how you do. Why can’t everyone leave her alone?

I usually get great advice and support from yahoo moms so i wanted to share a little feelings i have hidden for awhile…

After one happy year of marriage with my husband we were blessed with a child.. she is 12 days old today. Ive gone through depression during my pregnancy.. its sickening to say now but i thought about dying with a child in me.. i had to hide all these feelings from my husband because i know his not .. how can i say this… like.. his not a person who will hold me and say i love you.. his the type to say “get help” dont get me wrong now.. his a great guy.. if he wasnt i would of never married him.. now i regret hiding all thoes feeliings behind..

I had a c-section due to few complication… recovering is painful and my heart cant seem to know how to be happy anymore.. i stare at my little baby girl and tear in joy and fear.. i terrified to die later and leave her behind.. i guess this fear comes from my dad passing away when i was only 10 yrs old. ive been getting very little sleep and my body and mind is exhausted.. when i got home from the hospital i was in horrible pain.. i couldnt sit and get up on my own. going to restroom was hell and i had no help. my husband did not help me with my baby the first day or the second day. he slept while i was pulling myself up from the bed to change babys diaper. He have not been preparing food for me either. i have not been able to eat anything other than fast food past 10 days. i feel weak and i can seem to find a way to talk to my husband. i am afraid this is going to start a huge argument.

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I am pregnant with my 3rd pregnancy. The person i was with for 3 plus years and i had a conceived a child relatively at the beginning of seeing one another. it was agreed after talk about certain lifestyles and the changes that would be needed to stay together to bring up the family i had thought we wanted. No drugs, cooperation no substance abuse period. trust and whatever the hell else was to make the most of a relatively functional family. Things never really went that way i became sick with depression in my pregnancy and it became worse the longer it went untreated my child was just over a year b4 my doc finally diagnosed me and treated me. and that was also after an abortion due to circumstance with the person i was with and then closely after found was having an inappropriate relationship via text and email and whatever computer correspondance. I crashed so hard. The stress from being pregnant and thrown into a life i wasn’t quite ready for but was trying to transition as best as i could with the fact that the other suppose to be at my side was to selfish in there own ways to work and be along with me like promised. I felt betrayed for so long tried counseling individually and together till we were told that together due to the lack of effort on ones particular behalf not to come back. we struggled and fought and it seemed as if i tried hard to keep things together as they tried so easily to stir the shit per say. And succeeded. Left alone many a time to deal with things. Then as i went back to work and worked extremely long hours things got worse because they had a feast or famine job, here was a lot of time i was left to take o/t to keep things going. however we ended up meeting my family over seas my distant family and the trip seemed well. after a bumpy begining. we got home and shit hit the fan again we were over as of christmas afternoon, as they walked out the door. 10 mons later after fighting and emotions fly they finally started settling for me after a mini break down. off work and the returned feeling relatively better. they had bought themselves a house after 8 mons or so, and took a job some mons b4 out of town. Camp work where they see there child less than a week a month. and because i allowed myself to be intimate with him i am now 2 mons pregnant and a vd. And possibly twins. Found out he was sleeping with others. No i have not slept with any one but him. drunk unprotected sex now i suffer because there is no thought process in the male genitalia. I am messed and at first thought i could handle another baby. and at least i only have one a hole to deal with rather than 2…… haha. Well this is the main prob i have just been notified that my once secure is no longer secure they r closing the company. I hae no problem re educating myself but i am not sure with 2 kids by myself with absolutely no support. I don’t know wwhat the hell to do i never wanted ever to be faced with another possible termination it absolutely destroyed me and the person that i was with just wants to be good fing friends. no one will tell me what i should do i appreciate it but seriously i have no flippin idea what to do and afraid to make the wrong decision. help.

I am 16 and have been thinking about my career i would like.

I would like to help teenagers you know like guiding them through awareness and support of : drugs, stress,depression,eating disorders (compulisve too) drinking, pregnancy, bullying, learning etc.

I’d love to open up some sort of suppoer group/centre through this. But what jobs are already out there dealing with these kinds of things?

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I’m 24 and pregnant by a guy from my college class. I did find out he’s back with his ex wife. I know he’s saying he’s going to support me through this pregnancy, but again I know it’s all a lie so I won’t take him to court. Which I will anywayz. Anyways I’m falling into a deep depression it seems like. Some days I just cry because I hate the fact that I can’t change any thing. He lied to me about loving me for the past 3 years. He said he was sorry for being so stupid and not coming clean when he moved back in with his ex, but he had fallen into a financial issue and didn’t want anyone knowing. Such a lie…. I don’t know if I’m going to get through my days sometimes…. Does anyone else that’s been pregnant or is pregnant gone through these feelings? I don’t know what to do… I feel alone….

I am 24 weeks pregnant, and I don’t know why, but every time I feel my baby move around, I have this deep wave of depression and loneliness sweep over me. This was a planned pregnancy, and even turned out to be a boy. (what we were hoping for!!) It has been a great pregnancy (my 2nd), healthy baby, etc. I am really happily married, and feel so supported by my family and hubby. I just dont understand what is going on. Is it some kind of pregnancy depression? Has anyone else experienced this? Should I talk to my ob-gyn?

Well spoke to my doctor and he told me to express my feelings of depression to him (my husband)…but when i did that it turned into an argument and he thinks i’m just insecure. I tried explaining to him that i need him to help me and support me for a healthly pregnancy…at my wits end…

I have met my ex bf in the Christian Website and we became good friends until we became we.. When he visited me in my country and got pregnant I felt disappointed with him. At first he wanted to abort the child but I fought for my baby. He treated me as gf but during the past 3 mos of staying here, he preferred to be with his friends and stayed with the family of his girl friend (not a lover). HE wasn’t there when I had bleeding cuz my pregnancy is critical and whenever I need him. I have decided to forget him after that. On the day I was a about to accompany him in the airport as he was about to leave he told me he wanted to stay with me even for 3 days. I thought we would be fine. 3 days became ok. When he flew to other coutry for a trip he had debt to my brother cuz i helped him to buy plane tickets for his tour and promised to pay me not included other debts of 390 pounds. It took him more than a mo to pay and I was in the depression cuz I was the one facing the shameness to my bro for him not paying that. Not only that, he hurt me when he said we better be friends cuz he’s far so it means he gave me up already just because of the location. When he went back to UK I tried my self to forget him. I lost my job but with the help of my family and brother and savings, I am trying my best to support my pregnancy. We became ok when he was already in the UK, he’s still unemployed. before he said he wasnt happy for the baby but when he went home he said he’s happy but not yet told to his parents and family about this and it hurt me cuz im 6 mos already. Last time, he asked me to send money to his friend here. He wanted me to send it asap and got from the savings that he left for the baby. It’s our savings of only 141 pounds left. I felt sad cuz he even care for the sake of his friend than me and the baby even if he knew i am in a critical condition and money is not enough. He told me he will replace it when he got job but he’s having hard time to find job so im the one looking for a way to make money to add in our savings. i made him to promise that would be the last time but he didn’t promise me.. Cuz for two mos time he already sent money more than I have already to a girl I dont trust. HE just said his friend need it for education but i feel he’s giving more importance to other people than to his own flesh and blood. We had a n argument cuz of this and to end this up I still sent the money. I explained to him that when he got the job he better pay off first his debts in the UK. I wanted to stop communication with him cuz i feel not so important for him. I told him I will stop but he doesnt want to. I also doesnt want my baby to lose a dad. HELP ME OUT. I do not know if he’s just so insensitive or im just martyr for everything. Because of this, I couldn’t sleep so well. I do sometimes wake up int he morning and cant stop thinking the bad things he did. Pls help me.