depression, possible pregnancy, so stressed and only 15 :’(?
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depression, possible pregnancy, so stressed and only 15 :’(?
I’ve been suffering serious depression recently over a teacher i fell in love with him and i went crazy i was in so much pain and in such a dark place. I attemped suicide many times but unfortuntly all failed pathetically 
i began self harm to a very serious and nasty state and slit open my wrist at school and had to have stiches thats when my parents found out i self harmed and i got some real help.
I now see a pro councillor at the hospital.
During this i met a boy same age and very simillar like he says im the female version of him. He used to self harm but had long stopped by the time i met him. We had a rough start as there was antother girl involved.
We are now happy together and in a very strong relationship. but we have started being sexually active and im having to lie to my mum and everyone and its making me feel more distant to her and when i was really depressed i really fell away from all my family and i dont want that to happen again.
this major depression was like 2/3 months ago now
I still see my councillor and have feelings for this teacher but now my bf is around they arent half as strong and powerful.
Just lately i’ve been really worried im pregnant because my period hasnt come although thats been late for a while and no ones sure why. My mum and councillor think its coz i dont eat really and ive lost weight, so they are taking me to be weighed and measured and have a blood test to see if im anemic.
We’ve only had sex once and it wasnt real sex coz it was my first time and we had no condom but it did go in for a little bit so i got the after morning pill the next day and she said i have to come back for a preg test if my period hasnt arrived in 3 weeks and a cylamidia test.
Im getting really stressed about all these tests and worried if i am preg i dont see how its possible but still im panicking and everyones getting on at me for not eating but i eat less when im stressed anyway so that only gets worse.
Everyones telling me that my bf is a player and using me but i dont believe it and they dont know him like i do and i trust him and i just tell myself if he leaves me i can kill myself and i dont have to suffer so i dont worry about it,
i need some advice, assurance and help please just a few kind words to de-stress me coz i cant talk to my mum about it :’( or anyone else and its making me feel isolated
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My heart goes out to you so much!! I used to be very depressed. Can I share how I found true happiness and love?I’m running away with Jesus!! He has loved me and has been waiting for me my whole life. He left everything for me, all his wealth and palaces. And I’m leaving everything for him, all my pain and hurt and pride, all my dissapointments and unforgiveness. I’m just leaving them there on the road and I’m taking his hand! I don’t know why he loves me, but he does!! We will have so many good times together.
I can trust him. He will never leave me or forsake me! No matter what happens to me, he will always be with me and he will always love me! He loves me so much, and he forgives all my sins. He proved his love for me forever by dying on the cross for me. I don’t have to be afraid anymore! He paid the full price for my sins, and I can face him when I die, knowing he will come running to me with open arms! I can hardly wait!! I’m really in love with him! He’s making a beautiful mansion for me for when I get to Heaven. But he is all I really want! He is my Prince!!
Jesus really loves you!! He’s inviting you to come and be his Princess!
Jesus loves you more than anyone else can! He’s the only one you can keep forever. If you give your life to him, he will never leave you or forsake you. We went our own way and chose separation from him, which will ultimately send us to Hell forever. But God loves us so much, he made a way for us to escape and come back to him! He became a man, Jesus, so he could take our punishment for our sins by dying for us. All we have to do to receive his gift of life with him forever is believe he died for our sins and ask him to forgive us for them. If you want to be his, you have to turn away from everything that separates you from him. He is worth giving up everything for! Because he will give you far more than you could ever give up- Himself. He will laugh with you and cry with you. He will take your hand and walk with you! He will always be there for you.You can get to know him by faith, by talking with him and reading his letter to you, the Bible. The book of John is one of my favorites!
There’s a youtube called Everything Skit by Lifehouse! I hope it’s a blessing to you!
if you are pregnant, you can always give the baby up for adoption if you cant take care of it yourself.
Don’t stress yourself so much your too young for that, but anyways you said he wasn’t in for too long and unless he nutted inside you or per cum or something which it doesn’t sound like he did because you said you didn’t have sex for too long I don’t think your pregnant but it’s always good to get checked just to be sure if your pregnant or not because it only takes one time and it would also be good that you get tested for std’s, and please, please always use a condom doesn’t matter if its your first time or 5th always use a condom or don’t do it take care…..
It’s highly unlikely that you are pregnant if you took the morning after pill. Actually, it’s pretty hard to get pregnant just having sex once. It usually takes people who are trying to get pregnant many many times, since there is really not a high probability that it will happen. You are still young, and especially if your weight is fluctuating, it’s pretty normal for your period to fluctuate from time to time.
But it is still possible, even if it’s your first time, and every time you have sex, it is possible that you could get pregnant. I think you need to go in and get a pregnancy test and talk to the doctor about birth control options for next time. It sounds like you are close enough to your mother, that maybe it would be best if you just told her that you are sexually active? It sucks to have to lie about it, and it’s also putting your health and wellbeing at risk by having unsafe sex.
About the self-injury… I did that too when I was a teenager. Now I am much older, and I’ve outgrown it. You will eventually learn to manage stress in a better way too! Until then, I do want to tell you to be careful! Even if right now, it feels like it is the only thing you can do to feel better, years from now, you will regret all the scars and you’ll tire of constantly having to explain to people where they came from. You might not care about that now, but trust me, eventually it will be really painful to have to constantly relive this time in your life each time someone asks about a scar. Do anything you possible can to avoid cutting yourself. For me, going for a run really helped. There are a lot of medications that can really reduce the urge as well.
I know it feels like everything is just falling apart all at once, but you are going to get through this, you are going to be happy, and you are going to eventually find a relationship where you feel secure and where you can have safe sex without having to worry about what you’ll do if he leaves. But you aren’t going to be able to have these things until you get some of these problems worked out. So focus on yourself right now. Find people you can talk to about your problems, and if your current counselor isn’t helping, tell your mom that you need a new one. Also, you should never date someone who isn’t concerned about your wellbeing, so if the bf doesn’t take some responsibility and buys some condoms, then dump him! You will enjoy sex SO much more if you don’t have to worry about pregnancy and STDs!!!!