I have always wanted kids. Ever since I was 13, I have dreamed of the day I would become a mommy. After a tubal pregnancy a few years ago, I was told I could never have kids, and although I believed it, I couldn’t help but feel the pang of jealousy when a friend or a coworker told me they were expecting, or when I saw a baby in the store.

In November a hose plant in my small community laid off 65 people. My boyfriend was one of them. There are no jobs available now, but we knew we would be ok on my income and our savings.

December 9th, I went to the doctor and found out that I am pregnant, and now I’m devastated. Shortly after wards, I had to leave my job due to medical concerns surrounding the pregnancy. We do have medicaid, and have a budget in place so we know we will be ok financially, but I’m still feeling depressed.

I cannot make myself excited about this pregnancy, and I don’t know why. I thought hearing the heartbeat and seeing the ultrasound would help, but it hasn’t. What do I do? Has anyone else had this problem?

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