i just found out last night that i am 4 weeks pregnant. i am currently 20 yrds and taking anti-depressants, anti-anxiety and anti-psychotics for multiple reasons such as manic depression agoraphobia, self mutilation, GAD, for just a few.
my decision has been to termintate the pregnancy. not only for my self but for my fiance (who is behind me 100%) and has two years of college to go untill he gets his degree.

my choice is not easy i have been upset and crying the entire time, but i am mentally unable to take care of a baby. i have been in the hospital many times this past year for failed suicide attempts and for the self mutulation. both me and my fiance is living with my parents and mooching off of them for food and even cash every now and again. we cannot even sustain a life for us let alone a baby.
why i did not choose adoption. if i am off my meds i get very depressed and suicidal. my anxiety peaks and i have many panic attacks. carrying the pregnancy to full term i dont doubt will kill me, and the child.
this is a decision that i have already made for my self, my soon to be husband and our children that we plan to have when we can support our selves. And very importantly when my depression anxiety and self mutilation is in better control. i am hurting my sister very much (only other soul that knows what i am doing) for she is strongly anti-abortion with 3 little ones of her own. yet i feel very confidant when she told me that she understands that my medical issues must be taken care of prior to having a child.

any people out there that can give me good accurate info about abortion. pros and cons about medical and surgical. Also one thing that scares me is the pain, both mental and physical. does anyone know web sites for support?

please no mean comments if this is not what you believe in, do not post how terrible i am. we were using condoms and i guess we are one of that 3% where we used them improperly.
if you dont have anything nice to say dont say anything at all.
thanks in advance

I have to admit, im some what a hypocondriac, i stress every little thing i can, but i just have been feeling like something is wrong with me for the past 4 months.. i have had one anxiety attack cause i looked my symptoms up on the internet when i got sick with flu one time and thought for sure i had cancer.. and i FREAKED OUT! Now my scare is HIV or AIDS! i am getting checked the 19th..
Ive been with same partner for 8 months, and before him it was 2 months before i had sex with anyone. and my first is the one i am most worried about, that was December 10th, 2009, Would i be feeling more symptoms by now ? I am so worried. I had a uncle pass away by AIDs, and i am so scared…

Also i have experianced other symptoms which have gone but i had them before i got preg for about 2 months,

*twitching in head, arms, legs, everywhere..
*emotional,
*i also had sinus probs..
ECT. more symptoms, i just cant remember at the momment..

is this anxiety/pregnancy?

** EVERYTIME I BLOW MY NOSE ITS BLOODY, TODAY IT WAS MORE THAN USUAL, I DID HAVE SINUS PROBS, BUT IM SCARED ITS MY BRAIN… ANY INFO WILL HELP…
Also i got like 3 little bumps that itch, you cant see them but its red cause i been scratching them…… my mother said “hives”

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Then there are other women in general who are completely RIPPED apart about their pregnancies or abortions. As if it’s NOT bad enough being a woman without being pregnant…now..we hold the blame for pregnancy and ANY decision regarding it….yet SOOOOOO many women I know are abused and exploited…they are pressured into an abortion and violated in the WORST WAY POSSIBLE. No one lends them a hand when they need the support. It’s not enough to say “She should have been strong…things will work out…adoption…etc.”. I don’t think some people understand how mentally vulnerable you are when you are pregnant…I know….It was AMAZING how vulnerable I was…looking back on it..I couldn’t believe how weak I was…it’s SCARY..especially when you don’t have ANY support AND someone pressuring you. I have seen the strongest women taken advantage of. By family…men…clinics…etc. But what makes it the absolute WORST is that the people who bash women are…OTHER WOMEN. How sad is this? It breaks my heart. Women go through SO much & we waste our time being hateful and hypocritical.

It’s easier to get an abortion here..than it is to get birth control. I CAN ATTEST TO THIS! We live in an “advanced” country..but birth control is not cheap or easily accessible the way it should be. And NOT all women can use hormones..I cannot ..I have tried everything under the moon to be responsible. Condoms also have a nasty effect on me. However, of all the women I know that had abortions, or fell pregnant on accident, about HALF were actually using contraceptives.

If anyone knows what I am talking about..you can back me up. I have completely DESTROYED my body trying different methods of NOT getting pregnant…and in the process ruined my sex drive…so that’s a lot of use right? I’ve developed HORRID depression, acne, etc. My doc told me I have PCOS. I have NEVER had symptoms like this until birth control. It’s SO sad that we have to go through this hell and be judged so terribly. We are expected to do EVERYTHING men do…in such a short time…while being a mother, wife, pregnant mom, etc.

Just something to think about….am I the only one who realizes this? I’m not even a feminist or anything..I just realized it’s 2010 and this is how behind we are still.
True Jill..it just scares me because I would think…half will be judgmental..half will not..but it seems more like 95% are judgmental..and the other 5% are not. Many judgmental women I know..I have come to find..actually had not one, but MORE than one, abortions themselves…but yet they are so hateful to these pregnant women. It totally baffles me. I don’t expect men to lift us up..but I know how hard it is to be a female and could never understand the women who bring us all down.

Has anyone here taken these drugs during pregnancy? What happened, if so?

PS: Don’t bother to go on about how I should just stop taking them and I really don’t need them. I know from personal and professional experience (I’m a psychotherapist) that some people have no quality of life without medication.

Shortly after I had my daughter almost 3 months after I had her I became pregnant again with my son. I am recently still recovering from having him only a couple months ago and noticed as soon as I had him that my anxiety came back. When I was in the hospital recovering my anxiety reached its worse and now that its been a couple months later I noticed my neck tension coming back extremely bad and my anxiety has worsened. I went back on my lexapro after having quit it completely when I was pregnant with my son but it seems to not be helping at all…my psychiatrist prescribed me a muscle relaxer and it still doesn’t seem to be helping with my neck tension and even though I’ve uped the dosage of my lexapro my anxiety is still horrible…=(

I have brought all of my concerns up to my doctor and she says their has been some case studies suggesting that pregnancy can even out hormones and seritonine levels that lead to anxiety and in some people pregnancy has been known to cure their anxiety.

Has anyone experienced anxiety levels lower while pregnant?

If pregnancy helped cure my anxiety would going on birth control do the same (since it tricks your body into thinking its pregnant)?

PLEASE HAS ANYONE EVER EXPERIENCED THIS?

I am presently still dealing with my heartbreak – breaking up with my baby’s father and him accusing me of deliberately getting myself pregnant.

I am just worried that my depression can affect my baby. Has other women felt this? And can depression heighten the risk of a miscarriage?

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