i am a 20 year old female, who is sexually active, but i do not need a child at this point in my life, nor am i trying to conceive. i am waaay too young in my opinion and i want to be married first. i am on depo-privera birth control, and just had myself checked, and i am not pregnant, nor am i having any symptoms thereof. i have recently been struggling with depression/anxiety and took some anti-psychotoics. now i am just on low prozac, hypo thyroid meds, zyrtec for allergies, and prenatal vitamins ( i will explain those).

despite my desire to NOT have a baby right now, i keep having vivid dreams, almost every night, about having a baby or being pregnant, or giving birth. of course, since i’ve never experienced any of that, the dreams can be kinda wacky, b/c i don’t know what to anticipate. for example: before i actually had sex for the first time, i would dream about “having sex” but me and the guy would just kinda lay on each other?? it’s like my mind tries to fill in the details about how a baby kicking inside would feel, morning sickness, birth, etc. the unfortunate thing is that the theme of the dreams is that 9/10 times i am a bad mother, or my baby dies, or i kill it by accident, or miscarry, or it’s abnormal severely, or it is a lifeless plastic doll and i have to earn the right for it to be a real child??? like i’m not worthy or something… and since it’s abnormal or dead, i either go to prison, a mental hospital, or my family shuns me. i wake up breathing hard, sometimes sweating, and sometimes in tears. it’s very disturbing and i am sick of it, quite frankly. do i just need to have a freakin baby and get it over with, or what? MAKE IT STOPPPP

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I’ve had a history of psychological problems (depression, suicide thoughts) in my early twenties, episodes that happened within a year or so. I got medical help and got better..

I’m 26 now and pregnant with my first child, and ever since the last trimester of pregnancy started, I haven’t been able to sleep well. During those bouts I also feel much moodier, sensitive and generally low. I know that both insomnia and mood swings are normal during pregnancy, but I’m worried that, given my background, they might trigger a postpartum relapse into depression.

I would like to avoid medication, and wouldn’t go to a psychiatrist unless absolutely necessary (my insurance doesn’t cover psychological help, and I have an unstable financial situation right now). Could you please give me some advice?

I have a history of depression and had a miscarriage about 10 days ago. My brain is now spinning in circles with lots of questions. I have not fallen into any type of destructive behavior; however, I am slowly falling into a depressive one.
I am fine most of the time, but whenever I see something that reminds me of the baby and being pregnant, I start getting extremely sad and want to cry…I do not want to use medication for this because anti-depressants do not sit well with me – I become a roller coaster.
I stopped talking about the baby with everyone, including my boyfriend, because I feel like I am annoying them. So, I just hold all my feelings inside and pretend everything is OK. At work, there is another girl who is pregnant and I was only a couple of months behind her…Now I cannot even look at her. I get really sad thinking about what could have been.
Is this normal? If so, what can I do to make it better without taking medication? How long is this going to last?

I’ve had depression for a very long time and i’m taking two different types of anitdepressants and an anti anxiety medication to try and cope with this pregnancy. The problem is, i have a daughter who just turned 1 and i wasn’t actually happy to have her in my life until she was 9 months old. We got pregnant very quickly when we decided to try again, which i wasn’t totally on board for in the first place. Honestly, we are an LDS family and we had the feeling that we should have another baby. So now i’m 11 weeks and i’ve been hoping for a miscarriage the entire time. i feel to awful about it because i know we are doing the right thing, but i’m very overwhelmed and i’m only 21. Is there anyone else who has felt this way because i feel crazy and guilty every day and i’m on every medication i’m allowed to take. I don’t know what to do. If anyone has any thoughts or has ever been in this situation, i would love to hear from you. Thanks!

This is kind of a complex question, and I don’t really know exactly what I’m asking so bear with me.

I just turned 22 a month ago. I’m getting ready to graduate nursing school with a BSN in January. My boyfriend will be finishing his degree in November. We’ve been together for three and a half years, and have lived together for two and a half of those. We fully intend on getting married in the future, as long as things continue to go as great as they are.

Here’s the thing. I’m approaching ten days late on my period. I’ve had sore breasts, a little bit of nausea–more stomach pains than anything, cramping (much like period cramps, except lower and duller), and increased discharge. All signs point to being pregnant, however, I have quite the irregular cycle, and it could simply be PMS.

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This is my 5th pregnancy I have had a stillbirth 1st preg then 2 children and then three months ago had a miscarriage and just found out am preg again. My third preg had serious depression stemming from my 1st loss . Was finishing a pregnancy loss bible study when I had my miscarriage and am just worried that emotions will be crazy with preg now. Has any one had a similiar experience to mine? Please I would like to know someone who can truly relate to me

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In the start of my pregnancy, it was rough, because it was not expected, and it was hard for my boyfriend to accept. After a few weeks, I was happy about it, and he grew happy too. We went and bought little things here and there. My boyfriend is supportive & now is excited to find out the sex, and is taking part in my prenatal visits, and growing into ‘being a dad’.

Me, on the other hand…..

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I have been diagnosed with bipolar diorder and depression. I had been taking medications and kept my diorder under control for the past few years. Now I believe I am pregnant, and although it was not confirmed, my doctor advised my to begin lowering my doses as to stop my medication, for fear of hurting the baby. I am worried that without my medicine I may go back to being very depressed or in a state of mainia. I worry that something terrible may happen to me or my child unintentionally. I had a history of suicidal tendances before I began my medication. I intend on discussing this with my doctor and seeing what he advises, but I was just wondering if anyone else may have had the same psychological/medcial problem (just to ease my mind)

My mood swings are so out of control. And my boyfriend is on the verge of breaking up with me because he says I yell at him ALL THE TIME and that I [B * I * T * C * H] ALL THE TIME and that I treat him like [S * H * I * T] all of the time. And what he doesnt understand is that its both of us right now not “JUST ME”! he its quitting smoking right now so he is in a shitty mood also! and he is under stress right now tooo! he is working, going to school, paying all the bill, making sure that we get to our appointments and things and he is just in a grumpy mood too! We argued alot today and he says that if I dont change VERY soon that he is going to break up with me. And that were going to have joint custody of our child. And he says he wants to work things out and he wants us to be together. But i am trying to explain to him that I dont mean to be this way and I am sorry its because of pregnancy hormones but now he says that I have used that as an exuse WAY too many times already!
and he really does try to deal with it, but its just so out of control right now i dont know what i can do to control myself. and he just told me that hes not going to break up with me he just says that cuz he thinks maybe if I hear it that i’ll change. but what he doesnt understand is that I REALL CANT conrol myself when I yell and get mad over stupid stuff. and I wish I didnt get like this but thats part of pregnancy. I dont maybe just some advice on how to get through this or if there is somthing that we can do??? i dont know, thanks