im 16 and my boyfriend is 17..we have been together for over a year now and we are very close. a couple of weeks ago i found out that i was pregnant after our first time having sex…we both knew that we didnt have the money or werent ready for a baby…
so we told our parents and they said we should have an abortion.
so i did…and now im feeling like i made a mistake…and im feeling all alone in my depression..
my boyfriend is one of those ppl who block all the bad stff out with something good n dnt really face it…he trys to just let it go and not deal with it…well im one of those ppl that show my feelings and i like to talk about how i feel
well he doesnt understand…
i try to talk to him and all he can talk about is how we did it for a good reason and we cant handle a baby anyways right now…
but i just want him to understand how i feel
im hurt alot because that was my first child ever…and eventhough i went through a lot during the pregnancy i still loved her/him
i was 6weeks and 2 days and i know thats not long but i just really cant help but to think “what if” you know?
its like the more i try to drive it out of my head the more it comes in…even though she/he wasnt anything but the size of a kidney bean i still feel attached to it and now i feel like…”what have i done??”
i know depression is normal after abortion but it makes it even harder having a younger sister who is pregnant and is about to have her baby…its hard because i cant look at her stomach without crying or feeling sad, mad, hurt, or envyous…i know it would be hard to take care of a baby but i just know that we would get through it and be so happy…im not saying that i want a baby or anything but i had one inside of me and you just simply cant help but think what if she was still in me…where is he or she now? what would they have been? would they have been somebody who would change the world? would they find a cure for a disease or would they touch a life…you cant help but think…but i just dont know what to do…
last night i stayed up all night crying and it hurt so bad emotionally that it hurt physically too…
is all of this normal or am i taking it WAYYYYY too far as my boyfriend says??
i really need someone to talk to that has went through this…plz respond if you have..
i did..i named her Capri Elizabeth
i have the ultrasound before the abortion and everything…

is it wrong to go to sleep at night and play with her in my dreams…
is it physco..i feel that way..but is it…
it makes me so happy to just be around what possibly is her..she so beautiful…but its a lot harder seeing my sister almost having her baby and having someone to love you no matter what…and someone who wont judge you(the baby)..but is that bad that i dream of playing with her and i feel that she is with me and eventhough she didnt get born i still feel like she is with me..its like a peace i have at times….idk..its a long story…
sorry to keep adding…but i named her after this song by colbie cailatt..its called capri and i think of it all the time…sing it in my head and look at the ultrasound…if you want to listen to it…its a beautiful song…

I’ve had to post this 3 times cause Y!A wasn’t putting it up for some reason… DOn’t know what’s going on there… Here goes.

27 weeks along.

I don’t know what’s been going on with me lately… My moods are so unstable they are starting to drive ME crazy. Everyone around me has noticed something different. I just feel so lonely, and sad… I feel like no one understands what I’m going through, and when I try to talk about what’s worrying me, people just look at me like I’m crazy. Probably because they’ve never freaked out about phalsates in baby products…

I just feel like there is so much to worry about, and I’m the only one thinking ahead. The father isn’t around, so I have no support from a male, which I think is critical during pregnancy. And the man I’m in love with, (and have been for 3 years), has a gf, and it’s not me. Ugh.

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They say that if anything can make death feel like a truly desirable alternative, it’s getting dumped. However, most of the time, we are just so caught up in the misery of the situation that we tend to neglect the slightest bit of hope that still lingers. Even if it seems so at the moment, a break up does not and will not end your world. There are ways in which a person can always discover how to get over a broken heart.

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One of the most important things for a woman to ensure while she is pregnant symptoms is that she remains healthy throughout the the nine-month period. This is because anything that affects the mother will affect the baby in her womb. With that into consideration, women should be aware that any preexisting condition they might have and/or the medications that they are taking can have a profound effect on their pregnancy and their baby. In some cases, this may increase the risk of babies being born with birth weight problems (either overweight or underweight), developmental problems, preterm labor, premature rupture of membranes, pre-eclampsia, congenital heart block, or deformities. It may even be the cause of death for both mother and child.

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I have an adult daughter, in her early 20′s who I STRONGLY believe has a personality disorder. Without going into a lot of detail, her moods are unpredictable and extreme, generally does not care what she says to others or their reactions, regularly needs reassurance and believes others are persecuting or ‘against’ her, etc. (there are many more symptoms). Adding to my concern, my daughter just had a baby. I do not believe that these issues are a result of the pregnancy or postpartum depression/psychosis, as she exibited the same symptoms for a few years prior to becoming pregnant. I am, however, VERY concerned for her and subsequently her daughter. I have tried both tactfully and directly to get her to seek treatment, but she absolutely refuses. Recently, I tried to get her to go to the ER for a minor issue, just so that I could try to pull the nurse aside and explain why I really took her there, in the hopes that they would provide a psych consult. Of course, my daughter refused to go to the ER tho. I’m at my wits end and need any advice that anyone has. My daughter and granddaugter live with me, so at least I can try to keep an eye on them both, but this cant go on indefinitely and I really have no idea what to do! Any suggestions or even legal advice? BTW, I live in AZ (for legal advice). Thank you so much!

Often referred as “baby blues”, Postpartum Depression (PPD) is experienced in some degrees by more than 50 percent of women giving birth. This type of depression can last for some time, which may vary between a few weeks to a few months.

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