It was only a one time deal and didn’t last long, I think im over reaacting.

Ok, so I have heard different things about smoking while pregnant.
I became preggo in Sept. 08. I didnt know I was pregnant till Oct. that entire month I was smoking like a train. a pack a day or more. when I found I was pregnant I immediately cut back. I would have a cig in the morning, one around lunch, then one around dinner, and one before bed. I finally I had myself down to almost 3 a day. Then some problems in the home occurred and I started smoking more. I had become stressed and depressed, so depressed I almost considered an abortion (which I am morally against ). Cigarettes were the only thing keeping me level headed about being pregnant. yes, everyday I fear for my child, I wake up wondering if my lil peanut is still alive and kicking. I am now 17 weeks and havent been able to quit due to my depression and anxiety. I love my unborn child, please do not get me wrong, my unborn child is all I have. The father of my child is a complete jerk and well my boyfriend isnt being supportive. He lectures me everyday about smoking.
I have done research and talked to other mothers.
Some mothers said they smoked and their child came out healthy.
Some mothers say differently.
Some doctors say this and others say that.
I fear for my baby, but not due to being selfish, I havent been able to quit. My family is 8 hours and the only support I have is from my co-workers.
I really want to quit, at least by the time peanut joins this world, cuz I have more fear for the 2nd hand smoke harming my child, plus I want to breast feed.
So am I looking at an unhealthy child cuz of my need to calm my stress and depression or will my baby be fine.
So far at all my doc appt.. my baby has been very active.
am I being a bad mom?

I’m 4 months and 2 days pregnant and feeling depressed and I’m worried that it might bring on postpartum depression.

I was feeling a little sick and all of a sudden these thoughts popped into my head and before I knew it I was in tears, feeling like everything is going wrong and feeling so far beyond unattractive. I’ve started doubting my relationship, and I am unable to trust my partner even though nothing in our relationship has changed, and he hasn’t done anything recently that would trigger these thoughts.

Could this just be hormones? Or could this be the start of depression?

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…the hormones are making it worse!
To: Needs Answers – I think you’re right; I got up from a nap not too long ago and I feel terrible, I didn’t sleep all night.

Every mom-to-be is anxious about her pregnancy due date. To reduce your anxiety, here are some signs that indicate your baby is in a hurry to come out and see the world!

Signs of Pregnancy Due Date

Your body gives you signs when your pregnancy due date is near. Here they are:

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Hi, i have a small baby, she is 4 and a half months old. I think i could be suffering from postnatal depression. I was depressed for the majority of my pregnancy due to it being unplanned and pressure to abort (from her father) After she was born, i had the baby blues, i think it was because i was so overwhelmed with having a new baby etc, but i soon got into the swing of things, and i do love my daughter dearly. Lately things have taken a turn for the worse, and i find myself crying more often than not, i have suicidal thoughts, i hate myself and feel like a failure. If it wasn’t for my elder daughters (15 & 16) my baby would surely be in care, as days when i can not even bare to look at my baby, they take over for me. Which makes me feel even worse, that i have to subject them to this life. I don’t leave the house, unless i absolutely need to, and when i do, i feel self conscious and paranoid like everyone else can somehow sense that i am a failure. I find it hard to go to sleep, which in turn makes it harder for me to wake up at a decent hour. Everybody around me like my mothers, sisters seem to expect me to be ‘strong’, so sometimes i pretend that i am happy, to make them feel better, but inside i am dead. I just want to feel better again. I often wish i did have an abortion or i think about giving my baby up for adoption. I have even called social services to do so, but didn’t give them my real details, the next day i was happy that i did that. I am going to the docs on friday, and i plan to confess how i am really feeling. But i just want to hear from other mothers who maybe suffered from postnatal depression too and recovered. Honestly, did the medication work? and how long did it take to have effect? and how does it make you feel? groggy? more alert? what?
Thank you everyone 4 all your input and 4 sharing your experiences.I have a beautiful home with a large garden, and i recently purchased a 12ft trampoline which i use from time 2 time, so i think i get enough exercise and fresh air. I am just not enjoying mixing with people right now, so i spend alot of time at home. As I don’t want other pples sympathy. Also where i live i dont have any friends or fam, every1 lives far away.Lately i have been going out on Friday eves and drinking, listening to music ( which feels really good and makes me 4get about my life for a moment)…but it is only temporary. Every where i go, everyone seems to be happy. It hurts to see moms and dads with their babies, knowing i am raising mine alone. Her father hates me. He came to a few hospital appointments, was there when she was born and was around for a few weeks after, but due to an argument we had in June, he hasn’t seen her since and he wont talk to me. This doesn’t help, as i don’t know whats going on.